Time heals all wounds

It's been more than a week since she left and the effects are slowly wearing out. I guess it's good that I've been really busy the past few days trying to do my tutorials and coursework together with the planning of major event and band practices. Never expected planning band practices to take up so much time. I guess it's mainly a lack of coordination between the committee and the players. Oh well. I really hope everything goes well tomorrow(or rather today) at our first practice. There isn't much time left for us till the first combined rehearsal and I'm getting a little jittery, especially since I'm the band leader. Sigh.

I guess slowly but surely I'll forget her and start treating her like a friend again. I've been telling myself to do that and I think it's working. Funny thing is that when I talk to her, she treats me so cold. Not used to it because ever since I knew her she has never treated or talked to me this way. I guess things have really changed and I should really let go. I'm also beginning to realise that we do have different personalities and we probably won't be able to see eye to eye on certain things. Plus, she is gonna graduate this summer and I'll only be onto my second year. It would be really unfair to her if she got "tied down" to an undergraduate. So, I guess it's really good to let her go. It'll do us both good.

Now when I think about it, I just treat it as a pity. Nothing else.

I'm fickle.

I fall too easily.

And I hate myself for that.