I don't know what I'm feeling right now. Seriously. If you're trying to make me stop liking you I'm afraid that you're actually on the path of success. You ask me why I've been feeling sad today. I really don't know how to answer because I'm in no position to feel that way. What you told me last week and your actions lately speak differently. You seem to treat someone else better. Fine. I'm jealous. I don't deny it. What exactly do you want to do with me? Am I just like your toy so are you really seriously thinking about it? You say you don't want me to get hurt but each day it seems to get even worse. Yet, I still fall deeper and deeper for you. Ironic? Yes I think so too. Because I'm confused. Or rather, you're making me confused. As of the weekend, I was sure. As of today, I'm not and maybe that's why I've been feeling sad the whole day. I felt like I lost you today and I seriously felt that way. It was a lousy feeling.
Maybe I'm thinking too much. But that's because I care for you. Everything I've said is true and I mean it. It may seem "flowery" but I can't think of any other way to put it across. Believe it or not it's up to you. All I want is......is it really that hard?
Maybe I'm thinking too much. But that's because I care for you. Everything I've said is true and I mean it. It may seem "flowery" but I can't think of any other way to put it across. Believe it or not it's up to you. All I want is......is it really that hard?
Right now, I'm drinking alone in my room hoping I can fall asleep the moment my head touches the pillow so I wouldn't have to think about unhappy things. I'm tired. Physically, mentally and emotionally. Don't believe that happy and nonsensical face you see everyday. Sometimes I'm just putting up a front. Just wish that I have a shoulder to cry on sometimes and I would very much like that shoulder to be yours.
Boo~
Boo~
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